Chapters
The Beginning
Summer. In the winter time, the majority of us want the cold months to end and for summer to begin. When I dream of summer, images of week-long camping trips and L O N G road trips come to mind. Home also comes to mind, spending late nights staying up with my cousins watching as they play video games because I’ve basically given up on reading. It’s tiptoeing to the kitchen to grab a late-night snack so my brother and I don’t wake our parents up. Those memories are what summer means to me.
Moving on, I will come right out and say it: I have mixed feelings about this summer coming to an end. Don’t get me wrong, there were endless highlights which I will cherish forever. Just like any other season, this summer has had its ups and downs. The thing to remember about life is that nobody is handed a pause button after birth. Ultimately, we have to persevere and live our lives to the fullest as possible. Friends come and go throughout life and unfortunately as hard as this is for me to write, family does as well. With that being said, you should NEVER let that stop you from achieving your dreams.
However, the beautiful piece is that there are endless opportunities and adventures waiting for everyone, whether we know it or not. So as summer slowly turns into autumn, look at the delicacy of the leaves falling and the satisfying crunchy noise they make underneath your boots and drink all of the pumpkin spice lattes your heart desires.
Moving on, I will come right out and say it: I have mixed feelings about this summer coming to an end. Don’t get me wrong, there were endless highlights which I will cherish forever. Just like any other season, this summer has had its ups and downs. The thing to remember about life is that nobody is handed a pause button after birth. Ultimately, we have to persevere and live our lives to the fullest as possible. Friends come and go throughout life and unfortunately as hard as this is for me to write, family does as well. With that being said, you should NEVER let that stop you from achieving your dreams.
However, the beautiful piece is that there are endless opportunities and adventures waiting for everyone, whether we know it or not. So as summer slowly turns into autumn, look at the delicacy of the leaves falling and the satisfying crunchy noise they make underneath your boots and drink all of the pumpkin spice lattes your heart desires.
Chapters Introduction
One of the most glorious aspects that continuously occurs throughout life is the chapters we experience. Recently, I began a new chapter in my life I am calling “Cleanse.” When setting out on the adventure to accomplish my new phase, I looked at it as both frightful and enlightening. The reason this time was frightening was because I had absolutely no clue where to begin. The end goal was (and still is) to emerge rejuvenated, refreshed, and ready to conquer all of the obstacle’s life throws at me along the way.
To start my cleanse, I tried multiple types of face masks from charcoal, green tea, and a combination of honey and vanilla. The charcoal mask was a little messy and ended up all over my bathroom counter, but it was still a fun experience to try something new in my life. Trial and error, right? Next, I drank organic aloe water, which I will admit I was hesitant to try at first but it tasted like a leaf and a pear and somehow went together perfectly. Then, I made DIY (do-it-yourself) homemade bubble bath using a website called Real Simple.
As I wrap up this entry, I would like to mention that ANYONE can do a cleanse! If you are feeling stressed out from the hustle and bustle of the every day work place or just want to try something new and exciting, try a cleanse! There are so many different ways, techniques and methods to go about doing a cleanse. I know I only mentioned a few in this article, but I am positive that there are answers online if you are looking to start a cleanse. Throughout the exploration of this new journey in my life, I discover daily that I learn and grow for the best.
To start my cleanse, I tried multiple types of face masks from charcoal, green tea, and a combination of honey and vanilla. The charcoal mask was a little messy and ended up all over my bathroom counter, but it was still a fun experience to try something new in my life. Trial and error, right? Next, I drank organic aloe water, which I will admit I was hesitant to try at first but it tasted like a leaf and a pear and somehow went together perfectly. Then, I made DIY (do-it-yourself) homemade bubble bath using a website called Real Simple.
As I wrap up this entry, I would like to mention that ANYONE can do a cleanse! If you are feeling stressed out from the hustle and bustle of the every day work place or just want to try something new and exciting, try a cleanse! There are so many different ways, techniques and methods to go about doing a cleanse. I know I only mentioned a few in this article, but I am positive that there are answers online if you are looking to start a cleanse. Throughout the exploration of this new journey in my life, I discover daily that I learn and grow for the best.
Changes
Naked. They are naked indeed.
As their thick layers shed,
Dying and forever going to bed.
This happens at various speeds.
Some take their time
As the birds’ chime.
The dogs let out a howl
To let out a yowl.
It’s almost dreary
That it makes my heart weary.
Is it worth it to go on?
Answer me, my sun!
Before dusk turns to dawn!
And the birds and dogs go to sleep
To be heard without a weep.
Until sunrise brightens the sky,
Silently letting out a cry.
They are still falling,
Desperately calling.
Until eventually … none remain
As their thick layers shed,
Dying and forever going to bed.
This happens at various speeds.
Some take their time
As the birds’ chime.
The dogs let out a howl
To let out a yowl.
It’s almost dreary
That it makes my heart weary.
Is it worth it to go on?
Answer me, my sun!
Before dusk turns to dawn!
And the birds and dogs go to sleep
To be heard without a weep.
Until sunrise brightens the sky,
Silently letting out a cry.
They are still falling,
Desperately calling.
Until eventually … none remain
The Club
Belonging
To a clique,
A social group
Of people
That fit in
And somehow
Belong.
I was never
One of those kids
In high school
That belonged.
I was an
Unpopular popular kid.
Peers smiling at me
Saying “Hi Breana.”
When I had no clue
Who they were.
My closest friends
Tell me today
That I’m so kind
And make a positive
Impact on the world.
Which I try my hardest
To believe
Because you never
Know what someone
Is going through.
To treat everyone
With the upmost
Kindest respect
And dignity.
I belonged but didn’t
Until Henderson came
Into my life
I was who I wanted to be
Without anything holding me back,
Setting me out into the real world
Of college.
I belong.
I’m a member.
Of the club.
I’m not sure
Which club I belong
To but I’m defining it
As the star club.
My mantra to myself
Every morning is:
“Breana you’re a star!”
This helps me get through
The harder days of my life.
To think a small, little saying
From a childhood song from my youth
Called “Andy, You’re A Star”
By The Killers.
Jumpstarts my day
And reminds me that
I’m meant to be here
And fulfill and live
Out my dreams
Because I’m more than a person.
I’m a star.
Toxic
This is a song I wrote dedicated to anyone that has ever been in a toxic relationship. My heart goes out to you because I have been in toxic friendships myself and had to cut some people out of my life that meant the world to me and became my stars.
Introduction:
You broke me,
You choked me.
Took me down to the river,
To impel me to shiver.
Pre-Chorus:
Never this wasted,
Until I tasted
The whiskey on your lips,
Shaking my fingertips.
Will I ever be the same?
Chorus:
Love makes us complete,
Until you date a cheater.
He’ll say that he loves you,
Then leaves you to turn blue,
Like frosted ice on glass,
This winter too shall pass.
(End of Chorus)
Bridge:
As the cold came
I had no shame
Ran and ran
Without no plan
A one-horse town
Can cause a girl to drown.
They called me mad
For wanting to leave so bad.
Trapped within walls,
Hearing his phone calls.
Riding towards daylight,
Never seen the sun shine so bright.
Nighttime fell before you knew,
I spread my wings and flew.
(Chorus x1)
Spring time is here,
We’re nowhere near
How we used to be,
I threw away your key.
I’m living for me.
As I saw a tree,
Bold.
Strong.
Tall as could be.
(Introduction x1)
Outro:
Not all stories can be happy,
This one may be sappy.
But this song is dedicated to those
Who have ever been
In an abusive or toxic relationship.
My heart goes out to you.
Introduction:
You broke me,
You choked me.
Took me down to the river,
To impel me to shiver.
Pre-Chorus:
Never this wasted,
Until I tasted
The whiskey on your lips,
Shaking my fingertips.
Will I ever be the same?
Chorus:
Love makes us complete,
Until you date a cheater.
He’ll say that he loves you,
Then leaves you to turn blue,
Like frosted ice on glass,
This winter too shall pass.
(End of Chorus)
Bridge:
As the cold came
I had no shame
Ran and ran
Without no plan
A one-horse town
Can cause a girl to drown.
They called me mad
For wanting to leave so bad.
Trapped within walls,
Hearing his phone calls.
Riding towards daylight,
Never seen the sun shine so bright.
Nighttime fell before you knew,
I spread my wings and flew.
(Chorus x1)
Spring time is here,
We’re nowhere near
How we used to be,
I threw away your key.
I’m living for me.
As I saw a tree,
Bold.
Strong.
Tall as could be.
(Introduction x1)
Outro:
Not all stories can be happy,
This one may be sappy.
But this song is dedicated to those
Who have ever been
In an abusive or toxic relationship.
My heart goes out to you.
Dreams
I’ve always been a dreamer.
Had high hopes
And ambitions
For myself.
When they shattered
To pieces, to shreds
I thought I’d never complete
The goal set for myself.
Starvation,
Truancy,
Hospital bed
After damn hospital bed.
During sophomore year
I was a worthless piece of trash
That did not deserve to live.
I had no purpose, no meaning
And did not want to live
Past seventeen.
I wanted to graduate
On time so bad
But feared I couldn’t
And just gave up on living.
The thought
To attend what used
To be known as an
Alternative high school
Frightened me.
What would the kids be like?
Would I be “one of them?”
A drug addict?
A teenage mother?
A high school dropout…
Come September…
Everyone was so
Accepting,
Kind.
Welcoming.
Friendly.
Down to earth.
Encouraging
And motivational.
None of the rumors spread
At my home high school
Were true.
I could be myself
Without being judged
And felt like I fit in
Where I belonged.
The nine-month journey
Of senior year
Seemed to never end.
September to June
Seemed like an entire life time.
To be honest,
It passed in the blink of an eye.
When I thought I wouldn’t pass
The standardized tests I did.
They picked me up when I fell
And pushed me to keep going
And never give up.
Now, I am a community college student
And realize I have so much to live for
And will do everything it takes to
Fulfill my dream of becoming
A journalist with a news station
Had high hopes
And ambitions
For myself.
When they shattered
To pieces, to shreds
I thought I’d never complete
The goal set for myself.
Starvation,
Truancy,
Hospital bed
After damn hospital bed.
During sophomore year
I was a worthless piece of trash
That did not deserve to live.
I had no purpose, no meaning
And did not want to live
Past seventeen.
I wanted to graduate
On time so bad
But feared I couldn’t
And just gave up on living.
The thought
To attend what used
To be known as an
Alternative high school
Frightened me.
What would the kids be like?
Would I be “one of them?”
A drug addict?
A teenage mother?
A high school dropout…
Come September…
Everyone was so
Accepting,
Kind.
Welcoming.
Friendly.
Down to earth.
Encouraging
And motivational.
None of the rumors spread
At my home high school
Were true.
I could be myself
Without being judged
And felt like I fit in
Where I belonged.
The nine-month journey
Of senior year
Seemed to never end.
September to June
Seemed like an entire life time.
To be honest,
It passed in the blink of an eye.
When I thought I wouldn’t pass
The standardized tests I did.
They picked me up when I fell
And pushed me to keep going
And never give up.
Now, I am a community college student
And realize I have so much to live for
And will do everything it takes to
Fulfill my dream of becoming
A journalist with a news station
Your Priorities
Introduction:
Your breath smells of sweet cigars
Mixed with ale from the beer
You refused to put down.
You’d been sober for over a month,
But one tiny can broke all of
Our promises.
Smoking and drinking…
Chorus:
Was your #1 priority
Over me.
Guess I didn’t mean
A single damn thing to you,
Or anyone else.
Bridge:
I hope you’re living
The life that you wanted
I’m always a phone call away,
A text message, or a letter away.
Babe know this…
I’m never going to be there
For you when you relapse
And realize you were an idiot
For allowing the girl you loved
To slip away from your arms.
(Bridge Ends)
(Chorus x1)
I wish I’d went for another man,
One that wasn’t selfish,
And showed affection.
I did what my heart told me to
For my own egotistical reasons.
You’ll never hear another
Word from me.
By the time you hear me
Singing this song,
I’ll be long gone.
Hopefully away from you.
(Chorus x1)
Your breath smells of sweet cigars
Mixed with ale from the beer
You refused to put down.
You’d been sober for over a month,
But one tiny can broke all of
Our promises.
Smoking and drinking…
Chorus:
Was your #1 priority
Over me.
Guess I didn’t mean
A single damn thing to you,
Or anyone else.
Bridge:
I hope you’re living
The life that you wanted
I’m always a phone call away,
A text message, or a letter away.
Babe know this…
I’m never going to be there
For you when you relapse
And realize you were an idiot
For allowing the girl you loved
To slip away from your arms.
(Bridge Ends)
(Chorus x1)
I wish I’d went for another man,
One that wasn’t selfish,
And showed affection.
I did what my heart told me to
For my own egotistical reasons.
You’ll never hear another
Word from me.
By the time you hear me
Singing this song,
I’ll be long gone.
Hopefully away from you.
(Chorus x1)
